SO, I thought it would brilliant if I stopped hiding all my poetry away in a dusty little journal and actually posted some of my favorite poems on the 'net. I was sort of hoping for some constructive criticism, but please understand that these are my deepest, most intimate feelings put to words that might be weaker and more brittle than the actually emotion I harbor in my soul. So please, be cruel to kind, just in the right measure. ____________________________________________________________________
Building Bridges to Nowhere
(The Feeling of War):
Afloat on a desert sea of shadow
The fragile hope glistens in pale light
The gentle heart beats carefully
Dare something foolish touches it’s gossamer strands
And shreds it’s delicate bands
In these shadowed lands of memory
Fragile hope drifts on waves of melancholy
A reminder of why it waits in depression
Somewhere between love and hate
A haughty indifference settles upon the eyes of the shadow land
A storm grows in the pit of frustration
A turbulence of emotional drain
And fear’s dogs set upon the scent
Bawling and thrashing for a shred of the tender hope skin
Nowhere to run, no place to hide
A withered rose under fear’s gnawing teeth
Under the turbulent gnashing of rage
Hope is washed away
Torn. Tangled. Tainted. Ruined.
Because a fool built bridges to nowhere in his mind
And now no one is safe from his sea of awakened sorrow.
No bridges to peace…
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Sakura Blossoms:
You were my favorite secret
Always the mystery to me
Lies were the truth in your eyes, on your lips
You gave me one last kiss
To taste that bittersweet torture
As we danced on the knife blade of time’s sweet ecstasy
And now I think of you, my sakura blossom
Always dancing on the winds of destiny
Living for Moon filled nights
How I loved you
My sakura blossom
So bold and beautiful
But dieing too soon
It was all over far too soon
We were childhood lovers
Wanting nothing more then each others tenderness
But as the sun rose over the edges of your dreams
You were burnt by the veracity
Leaving you dazed and confused
You thought you were smarter than the rest
But you were too young
You turned us away
Trying to carry a burden to heavy for you to bear
With no friend to aid you
And all your foes armed with your fears
You abandoned us even as we fought to save you
Time was cruel to us
Taking you to the edge of the unknown
And leaving me alone with your legacy to bear
My little angel, how do I explain what happened?
How do I even begin to understand?
Has the spring bled away from our lives?
Baring the branches of our thorny friendship?
If I prick myself on the barbs of fear we’ve born,
Will the blood be the color of our bitter bloom?
Or has the winds of time torn away every last flower?
We may never know, but I’ll tend our savage garden
I’ll water this unhealthy land until I understand
What happened to my sakura blossom?
Even if all time wilts away,
I’ll shelter this bloom, this last sakura blossom.
For you alone, so bold and beautiful
In this solitary place I watch for my sakura blossom
You died out too soon
It was all over far to soon….
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Summer Romance:
I carry your memory in me
Like a scar upon my skin
Your stain bleeds within me
Tainting my very existence
I reach out to the vanishing dream
To touch your wavering face
But it slips past my fingertips
Just like our romance together
We walked the beach
Basking in the final moments of peace
Before the autumn tore us apart
Each grain of sand was a promise
That slipped away from us
And was washed away by the sea
We touched but never loved at all
Like two strangers in the night
Fumbling towards ecstasy
Yet I knew you well
Once upon that summer night
I knew you so well
Once upon a summer night
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Another Lost Soul:
I stumbled upon a fallen angel today, weeping in the gutter
I kneeled beside him in the rainwater and muck, silently waiting
He raised red-rimmed eyes of lament, his cold lips trembling in a perfect smile
Sadness etched his beautiful face, and even as his tears wiped away his sacred grace
I smiled, cold and wet in the rain and gutter and muck
Kneeling before a banished being of neither Hell nor Heaven
An Earth bound soul as lost as I am
And I wonder, if perhaps we are the same
I wiped away the traces of tears and helped him rise to he's feet
This will be the only kindness he receives in this cold place
With Heaven bending above us
And Hell burning below us
We are caught in a perilous struggle that we cannot defend ourselves from
My poor angel doesn't know what he's fallen into
God have mercy on us….
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Love Letters to No One:
Alone in an unbroken silence
No consolation to this painful love
My only sanctuary exist in this ink
As I pour my shattered heart out
I would cry tears of blood
If only to get your precious attention
But even then I couldn’t face you
How can I prove my love forever
When I can’t even look in your eyes?
So here I am, my unknowing lover
Dreaming every dream of you
Embracing close this suffering desire
As I scream out this ballad of unrequited love
My love letters to no one
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Gabriel--A Quiet Moment’s Reflection:
The rain trickles down the window panes like tear drops
Tears I know your confused gray eyes haven’t shed in years
Too proud and too strong to even let them see a crack in the façade
My beautiful one, so distant and lonely in the reflection of the moment
Even with me at your side your eyes are distant and don’t move to me
Instead they search the stormy skies for unanswered prayers
All alone in your head, can you hear the screaming in mine?
I can see the man you could have been in those distant eyes
And in the blurry uncertain moment I grasp your hand
But you don’t even realize I’m there
So I speak with my heart and eyes and presence
To speak with my voice is sacrilegious in this holy instant
I am here my love, forever and nevermore
I love the man you are, the man you want to be, and the man you will be
I love the way you mumble in your sleep and laugh and comfort me
I love the way you touch me and look at me like no other
I love you, the dreamer, the sage, the scholar, the judge, the poet
I love you, the lost boy, the broken hearted, the fallen angel, the lonely solider
I love you, my protector, my lover, my companion, my stone, my immortal
Let me be the mirror to reflect your simple perfection back at you
Let the rain be damned and hold me close to you
We’ll cry the songs yet unsung together
We’ll dream the dreams no man dares dream alone
And I’ll be at your side always even if you never hear me
Just touch my hand and hold me close to your heart
I love you my wandering angel…..I’ll be here eternally
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Good Morning - Goodbye:
The night bleeds out into the amber skyline
Devouring the glimmering dewy stars
But your obsidian eyes no longer flutter-
No lashes tickles the soft fleshed cheek-
No longer do your eyes stir - and perceive the perfect dawn.
Grave in the silence and the heart-
The air lingers in the sky but no longer on your lips
Yet my arms embrace the crumbling dream once more-
“Close to me will always be you”-
I whisper my Good morning- goodbye
And kiss the last time your mangled brow.
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Lack Luster:
Those eyes once dreamed.
For me they would smile and sing,
Laughter would give them lines.
But now not even their memory stirs.
Those eyes once gleamed ,
Burning emerald lights fixed on Paradise.
With lips forming the words,
Of a poem written by the broken.
Those eyes once saw,
A world that was not perfect,
But could be taught to heal.
And you once dreamed of guiding them.
Those eyes once lived.
And your body was once warm,
And your lungs once breathed,
But now you lay collecting dust.
The fragment of a lonesome memory.
Broken man on the floor.
Your eyes once beheld the sky-
Yet you never saw beyond the clouds.
Now those eyes lack luster.
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So Saith A Fool:
I walked down to the ocean
And stood in the breaking crest
To write my name in the waters
For I am a forgone forgotten fool
Dreaming of eternity in my soul
While making sand castles to mark my legacy
Whispering my prayers to flame
To burn them away so not to be heard
And at night I dream endlessly
Of ecstasy from a longing lover
Who’s eyes have not seen me
And who’s lips have yet tasted my name
Who perhaps doesn’t even think of me
As I mourn my miserable heart
Set upon his simple graces
A painted fool am I
So let me dream alone
While he smiles upon another
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Perfect Time:
Random objects trigger my lonely memory
Each one flashing an image of you
Smiling against the wind swept sun
Swirling dreams of the past life together
Fleeting and blurry but still tangible
Always of you standing so still
As the world moves about you blindingly
All in perfect time melody--
But always your smiling despondent face
Turned unblinking up to the burning sky
With those searching eyes of misty blue
Have you found the answers? I wonder
Or are you still dreaming in the past
Of the lost song falling from frozen lips
So you can finally capture the glory
Of the mastery of the perfect time
Your heart to mine melody
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Another World:
I am always chasing that dream
Racing towards the horizon
And losing myself in that sinking blue sky
But when I turn around you’ll be there always
Ready to hold me high again if I stumble
So we can reach another world
Together again my wayward friend
Hitchhiking through the deserted highway
We’re getting nowhere fast
But you stay by my side
Helping me find my way when I’m lost
Sometimes I think you know me better then I know myself
So I’m not surprised when you say
“Come with me to another world”
Side by side we’ll always be together
Chasing down that precious dream
So we can share our lives
With all the laughter and tears
I have to smile every time I see your beautiful face
I think I’ve found another world
How can you stay so calm when all I want to do is scream?
It has to be frustrating calling me a friend sometimes
But even when I’m losing control
You seem to be smiling
Waiting to help me pick up the pieces
And when I runaway, you hold my hand
We can escape to another world
When I’m dreaming by your side
I think we could almost break free
Defying gravity as we fall into the sky
Like an upturned ocean view
We’ll swim right through the air
Always flying higher towards the star
We can almost reach another world
So wipe always those last sad tears
Our summer night is still blooming
There’s still a few more miles to go
Take a hold of my hand and you’ll understand
We’re on the verge of something great
For just a little longer hold on to your faith in me
We’re in another world.
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What If This Is?:
What if the rain never stopped falling?
It would just keep pouring on you and me
What if the sun never shines again?
And what if I never smiled again?
Would you still keep promising me your forever
But how many more promises do I need?
Cause what good is your forever without you with me now?
So please stay with me a little longer
Ignore the lonely world outside that door
Even for just an instant in the blink of my tired eye
Stay with me to watch the dawn one more time
I never want to forget you in this scene
Every breath is a blessing when you’re beside me
And even if the eternal rain washes away everything
My loving memory of your simplistic beauty will forever linger
For no rain, flood, wind, or sky could steal that away
Please just say you’ll stay
Forget the tired world behind you
Lock the door and shut out the new day
All I need to survive is you, just like this
Your eyes still sleep stained but smiling
While shadows of raindrops freckle your soft skin
What if this is heaven?
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The Floating World:
You open those reaching blue eyes
Turning your face up to the mellow sky
To take in the Heaven’s tears upon your skin
The light drifting over the golden landscape
Setting the earth afire in the bronze twilight
You’re hands and heart are wavering
Like an image in a pond’s water
Rippled and distorted but glistening still
Gathered tight at the back of your brain
That fleeting memory of a better time
When did the stars stop whispering secrets?
Their endless eyes never winking out
Even when you open your arms to gather it all in
Always reacting while I stand by perceiving
This moment of solemn understanding stretching out between us
We stand aloof from the motion of time
Our eyes turned towards the sky and our feet stumbling through the dance
Caught between this life and the next
Swayed to calamity by the music of the spheres
We are trapped by enchantment drawn hues
Your shattered soul ebbs and flows over the night
My eyes tracing your steps from wax to wane
While our painted companion’s smiles flake away
Leaving the rotting flesh revealed to the gruesome light
As we waltz around foolish Prospero’s ebony clock
So take this fading, cold hand more of marble then flesh
And spin, spin me as my body unwinds
The final threads of discontent fraying
Watch as I pull apart at the seams
Against the gilded beauty of our lonesome backdrop
Butterfly wings beating against the upturned glass
Frantic and mindless, bruising and shredding
Until the whimpering heart gives out to inevitability
But the vivid colors still linger on the gossamer skin
Such is the beauty of our shattered lives
Your blind fingers searching for redemption in the falling rain
With my heart standing beside you in pity
While the dancers carry on to the song
Trapped in our floating world
Mysterious and shallow with scorn of men
Enchanted and tiresome like ancient gods
Decadent and irrevocably decayed like our decorated faces
But still I lock you away here to ease my faltering guilt
So steady me with your jaded laughter
The tears of despair glistening at the edges of your voice
Hold me tightly in ecstasy while screaming in horror
All your rights gone wrong in a single sigh
Until the breath of life fails us both
We’ll stay frozen in this malicious wheel
Beckoned into the gilded gates of the floating world we’ve created in the silence of the true love lost upon each other
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Harlequin:
Your eyes don’t always see me
But it doesn’t bother me much
As long as I can keep your glowing smile
I don’t need to be your only vision
Just as long as I remain in your heart
Hold on tight to that flickering memory
Of a simpler time when we could laugh freely
That’s when I could still be your harlequin
All my emotions locked behind a mask
But even then the smiles I didn’t fake
Your sincerity makes my heart flutter
The gentleness of your touch moves me
Your soft voice swaying me more then any sonata
So even when you just glance at me I fall in love
And perhaps you don’t feel the same all the time
This is all I truly need to go on
So I dance on this thin line for you
The one between your love and misery
We’ll share our wonderful laughter
The smile painted firmly on my sad face
The one I keep in a box just for you
A harlequin game all set to play
So I may steal away all your poignant tears
And renew that honest love in your eyes
Smile, baby love
Just smile for your clown
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A Dirge for True Friends:
All the world is falling apart, like the shattered glass mirror I put my fist through while we were fighting. My life lays in shambles, an inferno without the spark, and all the lights burn my tear stained eyes. I look to the skies for some answer to the question I can never voice. In a life so miserable and lonely, what have I left to cling to?
And then I turn around and there you are. Smiling gently with a laugh and a shoulder to ease my impossible burdens and broken dreams. Thank you for being a true friend.
